Life Unaccommodating

     It's 3:37 am and Davids alarm goes off. He goes back to bed. I remind him that he actually has to get up. (he's turkey hunting). He fly out of bed, gets ready, the room gets a little darker, and the door shuts.I can hear our (not so small) puppy Briggs whining.Her best friend just left her (to go hunting none the less).My stomach drops because I realize this will once again be life this summer.

Bff's. Wish she was still this small :'(

     Our life does not accommodate for time together. We have 4 entities that choose it for us: Lowes, Grandview University, DMACC, and Faith. After that we put our schedules together and pray for time. Don't get me wrong, we find it, but it's never consistent. Oh consistency, how I long for you. I dream of the day it can all fall into place and be a some kind of "normal"...but i feel like thats not going to happen fffooorreeevveerrr. Oh, and what I was talking about before, about summer...well, david is returning to his summer job (that he's had the past four years.) He works for a crop dusting company, driving trucks and mixing chemicals.He's paid by the acre sprayed, which means that a "good" day is him going to work before 6 am and getting home after 11or...for him not to come home for a day or two. uggghh. I hate it. BUT that job kept us alive this year, and because life didn't go exactly as my "perfect (kind of unrealistic) plan" was, we decided for him to do it one more year. I was totally ok with this decision, as i am currently feeling the sweet benefit of it, but lately i've been just burnt out by time (or lack there of). Now as I think about this summer, it just sucks. I can fill my time with friends (or my master plan of watching the whole series of friends and boy meets world), but in my heart i'm screaming "I just want my husband home.with me." Oh, did I happen to add that one of my very close friends will be gone all summer, along with my sissy (in law), and my BROTHER is living with us (as he will be working with david)??? YEAH.yeah. 


     So there it is. I know some would say that I have it good compared to military life, or having a husband that is required to be gone for weeks. BUT I believe that God has placed everyone in their position based on what he believes we can handle (with some room for stretching). I've wondered why I am struggling with it so much...I managed to get through so far! Why now? Could it just be a pity party? Am i just exhausted or burnt out? I know, I know I asked for this life. I got married in college. If I would have waited until late 20's, early 30's to settle down (like the rest of the world-well the secular world, ha) then we wouldn't have some of these issues...but God put me in THIS place. SOO...now what?


     I know there are people out there who have done or am doing the same thing. HOW??? What are tricks you have to strengthen in the time you do have together? OR can you think of some scripture that would shed some light on the subject??I am in desperate need of it.


Thanks for reading, and please pray...that I will always keep heart.